WHY

Things happen to me why? I hate everything and anyone I hate HATE HATE HATE them and myself, I hate myself the most. Why am I like this? Did I do something bad in my past life? WHY WHY WHY do I do things that I hate? I cant't seem to stop myself from doing them, I'm falling down an endless hole of solitude where I have my bittersweet happiness alone while hating the thought of being lonley for the rest of my life.